Pain Revisited (written in 1998; about my Mom)

The smell was the first thing you noticed when you walked into the room. It was a bitter antiseptic stench. They had unsuccessfully tried to mask it with powerful candles and spray but under the false sweetness the bitterness still assaulted the senses. No windows could be found therefore, the lighting was dim. Heavily shaded... Continue Reading →


I want to scream. I want to hit something, to destroy something. Anything. I want to cry uncontrollably and laugh through the tears. I want my outside to look as insane as my insides feel. I want to start walking and not stop until my legs collapse beneath me and then I can just lie... Continue Reading →

Goodbye house

Wow, its been insane. We have officially been moved to Arkansas now for 19 days. I say officially because that's when Son2, doggies and I rejoined our family... and came to be with Hubby, Daughter and cat. Hubby was the first to leave Texas in July. He didn't get to say goodbye to the... Continue Reading →

Soapbox… “#blessed”

I hate social media. There I said it. The problem is, when I was a smoker I hated cigarettes... something kept me coming back for more. That little nagging sensation that makes me certain I am missing out on something. So as many times as I remove Facebook from my phone... within days, hours it... Continue Reading →


I am forever guilty of being the idiot that tempts fate with such irresponsible comments as 'can't get any worse' or 'I can't handle one more thing'. Invariably these are the phrases which invite drama, stress and occasionally true tragedy into my life. Why the hell haven't I learned this universal truth yet? There is... Continue Reading →


I would literally give anything in the world for one more conversation with her.  The one that sticks in my mind the most is that last one, when she wasn't really herself anymore.  She told me that a maharaja had been admitted to the hospital, that they had put him into the room next to... Continue Reading →


via Daily Prompt: Almost   There are so many times in my life when the toxic little word 'almost' has had an unprecedented impact on my life. As a small child growing up in not much more than a shack with parents who were unintentionally detached from me almost was an escape.  I was 'almost'... Continue Reading →


via Daily Prompt: Cherish Merry Christmas! I once was young and remember the chaos and disarray of Christmas morning.  We would wake up and load all of our gifts and head to Grandma and Grandpa's house. My mother always dreaded it and I never understood why.  My Grandma would be scurrying around the kitchen with... Continue Reading →

Day 2 Jamaica Va-Ca

Trying to acclimate to another culture, climate and mindset is a daunting task.  Shadowed by the feelings of adolescent insecurity and concerns of other people's perceptions I began the second day of our vacation.  It didn't take me long to have the epiphany that people do not care! They don't care that I haven't lost... Continue Reading →

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